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[23 Aug 2007|08:35pm] |
Living in a dream of you and me,
is not the way my life should be.
I don't want to cry a tear for you,
so forgive me if I do.
If only you were here tonight,
I know that we could make it right..
I don't know how to live without your love,
I was born to make you happy.
'Cause you're the only one within my heart,
I was born to make you happy.
Always and forever you and me,
that's the way our life should be.
I don't know how to live without your love,
I was born to make you happy.
I'd do anything; I'd give you my world,
I'd wait forever to be your boy.
Just call out my name, and I will be there,
Just to show you how much I care. ♥
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| All In A Day.. |
[15 Aug 2007|01:44am] |
Soo today started off pretty mellow.. woke up early since I slept pretty much all night which has definitely been a rarity lately since I've had my surgery since I've alot of times had to wake up midway through sleeping and take more pain killers before going back to sleep. Last night was the first night I slept all the way through, which was nice. I took a shower after I woke up and then texted Sayward to see if she wanted to do something. She replied and I met her for lunch at Koto's. I could barely eat anything since my mouth is like sore, like in the jaw, and I can't open it wide enough to actually enjoy eating something. Yeah, cue jokes now about my mouth not being able to open wide, I know they're coming :]
After leaving Koto's I went to the mall and got my hair cut, bought some hair wax stuff for my hair, which isn't as thick and tough as most gels and holds, so it was alright to use. I don't want much stuff in my hair, I don't like it. Picked mom up around 3:30, and then talked to Sayward and she mentioned she was at B&N with Cheyne. I talked to my mom for a few and then went to get in the car to head to B&N and noticed the cars battery wouldn't start. I had no idea why, so I just called my dad and he told me to use the battery to jump start the car. I did that and it started fine, so I went to get gas, and realized that was stupid because I had to cut off the car and it'd just die again. I HAD to get gas though, I was on dead empty. So I then got out the battery again and restarted the car and headed to B&N. Once I got there after tons of traffic, I was annoyed to find the car still acting stupid, but I headed inside anyways. Sayward, Cheyne, Britni, Yoshi, Mark and his friend.
Marks friend Rucker was.. interesting to say the least. He was very approachable and very nice.. but something about him just made me feel like it was all a put on, saying he was so very confident and he studied all this stuff just to try to cover up his flaws. He kind of made me get the feeling he was a jerk at times. I don't know. I may be reading him completely wrong, but something just wasn't right about him, even though he was a nice sounding guy besides his rude comments which were just in jest, of course. He started talking about "confidence" and how you approach someone, and he starts asking Cheyne, and Yoshi how they have approached girls and such, and then he goes on to something like this:
Rucker: Now, Cheyne you've approached a girl right, and with confidence?
Cheyne: Yes, Yeah I have.
Rucker: Yoshi, you have too right?
Yoshi: I haven't approached anyone, I'm kind of to myself a lot of the time actually.
Rucker: Have you approached a girl Alex, and with confidence?
*Loud laughter amongst the entire table*
Mark: Well you'd have to know Alex to know why..
*Continued laughter*
Rucker: [whisper] You're, You Are Gay?! [/whisper]
It was the most hilarious thing I've ever seen in my life, well not entirely, but for the past while at least. Definitely made my night. After we talked for a while about random subjects we all split up and Sayward went with Mark and Rucker and Cheyne and Britni went with me in my car and we all met up at the Cavalier after I dropped off Britni. When we got there we went to the large table in the back and sat down while Cheyne, Yoshi, and Rucker went over to play pool in the corner while we were waiting on our food. Had long coversations about randomness, past experiences, pranks in school and just pretty much anything you can think of to talk about. We then left and went back to Saywards for a while and told Rucker and Mark we'd meet them at Starbucks in a little while while Sayward changed her clothes and rested a little since she wasn't feeling her best. We then all hopped in Yoshi's car and drove to Starbucks where we sat and talked outside at one of the tables. Rucker showed up later without Mark since he wasn't feeling good at all after dinner at the Cavalier. We hung out for a long while and then we all left. Yoshi tried to help with my car but it didn't get started and he just had to drive me home. Not fun.
All in all great night. Did I mention Cheyne is cute? ^_^
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[27 Jul 2007|03:16am] |
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yeahh, whatever.
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[22 Jul 2007|03:58am] |
I get to see t3h Mikey this week!
I'm excited about this all.
We're going to kidnap him and hangout around Roanoke.
This is going to be a great week. ♥
I'm also getting my cartlidge pierced this week.
JULIA CALL ME, WE NEED TO HANGOUT!
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[20 Jul 2007|02:43pm] |
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So I'm pretty much off work til next week at some point, soo if anyone wants to come entertain me or hangout let me know. I'm soo happy I don't work anymore this week. It was kind of hard getting home last night because a big tree had fell blocking our street from the big storm we had last night. Powerlines were down and everything. I had to find an alternate route home. It was annoying.
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[18 Jul 2007|09:22pm] |
dejus jsus (9:20:39 PM): you look like randy harrison
(Justin from Queer As Folk)
BlZeR 972 (9:20:30 PM): o_o
BlZeR 972 (9:20:35 PM): comment #952,653
BlZeR 972 (9:20:43 PM): will it ever end
BlZeR 972 (9:20:44 PM): haha
BlZeR 972 (9:20:48 PM): no I don't haha
How many times will I hear this? No I don't haha.
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[18 Jul 2007|04:32am] |
Just a blend I did when I was bored til I get new pics.
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[12 Jul 2007|02:01pm] |
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Things really haven't been that busy that past few days.. I was off from work Monday and Tuesday and Monday was my birthday. I went into work at 5pm last night and they sent me home around 6:30pm because they weren't busy soo that was nice. Although, I could have used the hours. It's not really that difficult of a job, and I kind of like the people I'm working with anyways.
Spent like five hours working on a new myspace layout and I just have a few more things to chance and I'll have the cutest layout ever. I love it to death. I just got really tired of my past layout and I've had it for a while. By the way- does anyone want to do something this weekend. I haven't really seen a lot of my friends lately since they've been busy or out of town. I've started talking with my ex again- ew I know.
There's no rain, there's no storm, though the blue sky makes you wonder. Don't you feel what will come, will come? But right now, we're in the sun. Sure enough seasons change, but don't let today get lost- because today the sun's on us.
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[08 Jul 2007|10:45pm] |
I'm really excited that they let me off work early today.. I don't think I posted this yet but I now work at Dairy Queen. I pretty much got hired on the spot and it's really not that bad of a job. I love the people I work with- they are crazy and I love that. If you want to know which store I work in let me know and I'll tell ou so you can come visit me! I like visitors. Can't give you anything free though- meh.
In other IMPORTANT NEWS my birthday is tomorrow. Buy me presents. Take me out. Treat me right. Eww that last one sounds too "Dairy Queen" to me, scratch that. I'm off Monday-Tuesday so we should do something; hit me up definately!
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[22 Jun 2007|04:35pm] |
The Spice Girls have set a date to announce their "future plans."
"Following weeks of speculation, the Spice Girls are set to make an official announcement to the world regarding future plans on Thursday, June 28," said a statement by their management company, 19 Entertainment.
"Details regarding the announcement will be released in the coming days," said the statement, released Friday."
http://music.msn.com/music/article.aspx?news=266574>1=7702
I think I just died. This is so exciting.
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[18 Jun 2007|03:23am] |
Hmm, not much really going on lately. I've just been relaxing and trying to enjoy my summer since it'll probably be the last time I'll have to myself and doing nothing. I'm going out this week and applying for work at different places, and my rents told me they'd help me buy another car after I got a job, and I want a cute little convertible. I also really think it's time that I get a job and save up money to move. Lynchburg has been great to me, and I have some amazing friends here but Lynchburg just really has nothing to offer me.
I need to be somewhere where I can experience life and learn who I am. I think by next summer I definately will be ready to move to anywhere of my choosing, the only problem is most of my friends are young and cannot come with me, but maybe that's how it's supposed to be. Maybe this is how life is supposed to be; always ever changing, friends changing constantly and it leaves you just sitting back while the world is rushing by you faster than you could ever imagine.
I've never really thought much about my life and where I am going, but I know that what I need in life I cannot find here. I've learned that perhaps the way we see life and the way we think life is is really just a small fragment of what life is and that I need to really embrace the changes and really let it all sink in instead of sitting here, alone, watching it all pass by without even a single meaning.
I've learned that sometimes we aren't meant to know what will become of our lives and where and what we will do with ourselves, but what matters is how we embrace it and how we live every minute of it without any regrets or inhibitions. I've fallen in love with someone recently that totally consumed every aspect of what I was looking for in someone, and I really never stopped to realize that I cannot have love right now. It's not really something that is possible right now in my life, and that I am just grateful that I am able to love someone so freely and express it the way I did. I am just happy that I found out that it's possible for me to actually love again after all that I have been through in life, and in relationships that I have been in.
I guess what keeps me going is that one little glimmer of hope that I might be with that special someone at some point in my life, and that life turns out to be all that I ever expected it to be and more.
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[13 Jun 2007|09:22pm] |
Hear me,
Don't tempt me anymore,
It was all a dream,
Resist your feelings stranger,
Don't call me, don't write,
Don't lose any sleep over me,
Cause I'm sleeping just fine,
Yeah..
I don't cry,
And I don't want you to anymore,
I'm ok,
You are better as long as you're far,
I don't want you hanging around my door,
Anymore..
For once, just let me be,
For once, you can think of me,
For once, I'm happy,
So don't do it, don't ruin it,
Anymore..
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| Maybe.. |
[09 Jun 2007|06:02pm] |
I'm strong, but I break
I'm stubborn and I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard, and life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe
I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe one day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then
I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might
Maybe
Love..
Maybe.
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[01 Jun 2007|01:47pm] |
If he really knows the truth
He deserves you
A trophy boyfriend, oh how cute..
Ignorance is bliss..
But when your day comes
and he's through with you
AND HE'LL BE THROUGH WITH YOU
You'll die together but alone..
Never Again will I love you
NEVER.
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[15 May 2007|01:18pm] |
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Is it bad that I laughed when my mom called me and said they found Jerry Falwell unconscious and barely alive?
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[09 May 2007|06:22pm] |
In doing something stupid over the weekend the consequences have kind of made me lose faith in who I am as a person and made me really question things in my life. It's funny how you can love someone with all of your heart even without even meeting them and want to be with someone so bad but things never work out.
I appreciate the support and I wish you nothing but the best in whatever you do or whoever you are with. Just know that I still love you with all my heart and that will never change.
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[03 May 2007|09:07pm] |
Parents leave in the morning to go out of state.
Hell yeah, I can't wait XD
Anyone want to do somethin?
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[03 May 2007|04:00am] |
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People and their problems just aggrivate me sometimes. Especially when people have time to talk and do things others want them to do, but then you ask them to do one simple thing and they freak and and list everything wrong in their life and go into explaining it and it's just like.. shut the fuck up. Seriously. People worry about too much stupid shit in their lives, and then wonder why they aren't happy. I mean I let people live the lives they want to live, but since when does looking into the past ever do any good in ones life? Very rarely. I mean I'm glad things have gone well for you, but looking backwards all your life hoping and wishing you did things differently is no way to live your life. I'm sorry for this rant, but sometimes things just get to me. Seeing and hearing some of the things I have, I really don't see me being happy anytime in the near future that's for sure. So I'm not even going to bother worrying about that. I'm alone, I've been alone for over a year now.. I can get used to it. It's not really that bad at all.
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[01 May 2007|06:07pm] |
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*Ripped by me.. Amazing video if I must say so myself. The "haunting" scenes are amazing; the way she just appears and dissappears. It has to be my favorite video of hers by far. Hope the rest of the album is just as amazing! Speaking of Kelly, she will be in Washington DC in August- does anyone want to go with me to see her? Tickets go on sale May 12th, and she said herself it'd be an amazing show!
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[29 Apr 2007|02:15pm] |
So I definately made out with a certain
straight guy in a dream I had last night..
It was scary, but quite tantalizing. ♥
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